darling, you are the only exception

songs i'm currently obsessed with:
airplanes - b.o.b. and paramore
secrets - onerepublic
say - onerepublic
young forever - jay-z
shark in the water - vv brown
kandi - oneeskimo

enjoy.

ohhh where to begin. i think with the most exciting news: elizabeth and i finally did it...we started our business! carolina sweet couture had its first wedding on saturday, june 5. HUGE success! www.carolinasweetcouture.com if you're interested. we are so excited about this opportunity, and we can't wait to see how god takes our big dreams and makes them a reality.

re-learning the lesson about where my hope is placed. for two months i've wanted the same thing, and i've hoped the same thing would happen. i think it's time that i realize 1. my hope is misplaced, and 2. it's time to give it up. it's not gonna happen. let. it. go. three simple little words that are oh so hard to put into action. i keep holding on and keep wishing and keep wanting, but it doesn't change anything. i've done everything i know to do, said everything i know to say. i'm confused and hurt and basically just emotionally drained, so it's time to stop.

shelby spent the night last night, and it was so much fun. it's so nice to have somebody else in that house with me. we watched pride and prejudice until 1:30 this morning and ate popcorn. we also spent a lot of time talking about relationships and life. i like people i can do that with. we both kind of agreed that it's frustrating when the bible tells us that "it is not good for man to be alone," yet we feel like we're the exception - god is making us be alone. i don't really understand it at all. i'm tired of being alone. i'm tired of coming home to an empty house. i'm tired of not having a last good night or a good morning. i'm tired of going dateless to weddings. i'm just tired of it. i don't want to be alone. and if you tell me "the only man a girl needs is jesus" i might cut you. me and jesus have probably never been closer. i'm still frustrated, and i'm still asking why, and i still have the same desire. and it's still not happening.

those things said, i'm REALLY excited about things going on in my life. i potentially have some really fun things coming up, some big changes, some leaps of faith. good. i need that. i need to be challenged and stretched, and i need change and passion and adventure. stay tuned. : )